How much longer must I go on like this ? With all these sleepless nights, the tears I've cried and the pain. Each passing day that goes by, I feel more and more lost. It scares me sometimes when I'm only getting more drifted away from the real me. I keep on putting this fake smile on my face everyday trying to hide away my pain. And hoping that one day, this smile that I put on wouldnt be on so that I could hide my pain. But a really happy one. I hate that fact I have to plaster a fake smile. This pain I feel is just so unbearable. I'm going through hell.. Does he even give a shit?

` a y e s h a.