I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you. I'm sorry for the times I've hurt you. Please forgive me and accept my pain filled apology. I miss your voice. The way you nuzzled into me when you were having an off day. I miss you. Your love. The love you gave to me. Come back to me. Please. Baby, you mean the world to me. I love you.

` A Y E S H A.

I'm always a mess. I can never keep my own secrets. I laugh too hard at stupid things. My favourite songs can make me cry. I always watch for 11:11, but i miss it more than i notice it. I live in the past, in the memories i have with the people i love. I hate thinking about reality & i'm so homesick that it`s not even funny. But not homesick in a missing my house kind of way. Maybe it's more like heartsick for all the things that i can't get back. It's hard for me to define myself. I guess i'm just a cliche -the girl who loved too hard & didn't get anything in return. I don't want to be the heroine in some tragic love story, i just want the one person who has never given me a second thought.

Wait outside,

I hope the air will serve to remind you

that my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath,

and my words are as timed as the beating in my chest.

I think i'm thinking too much about things. This is not doing any good for me but right now, i don't see anything i can do to make myself feel better. Its quite bad news, knowing i'm helpless.

` A Y E S H A.

The closer we are to the soul, the further we are from perfection. Why settle for honesty when you can breathe a perfect lie?Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart,the love that u gave me is just a lie..i feel so stupid bcoz i thought u were my true love and I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes.
` azrin&zahira

you are an amazing person and without you,I dont know where I would be..having u in my life, completes and fulfills every part of me.
` hanafee

away from home so far away with no direct love.just of those who will forget me soon but with all this u still manage to cheer me with ur love n smiles..
- Zahira.

Baby i love you,you are my life,my happinest moment werent complete if you werent by my side

Nizam.

How much longer must I go on like this ? With all these sleepless nights, the tears I've cried and the pain. Each passing day that goes by, I feel more and more lost. It scares me sometimes when I'm only getting more drifted away from the real me. I keep on putting this fake smile on my face everyday trying to hide away my pain. And hoping that one day, this smile that I put on wouldnt be on so that I could hide my pain. But a really happy one. I hate that fact I have to plaster a fake smile. This pain I feel is just so unbearable. I'm going through hell.. Does he even give a shit?

` a y e s h a.

1 day my tears drop out than i ask why, it's says there is sum 1 so beautiful in ur eyes so there is no room fo me (T.T)

Mujib.

I keep asking myself, how long do i have to go through this with all this pain in my heart and the sleepless nights. The time for night to turn to morning never took this long. This pain that I have in my heart is just so unbearable. I would trade my soul just to wake up from this nightmare that they all say its my life now. I know we agreed to distance ourselves from each other and to let go. Believe me, I've tried so hard. But my heart seems to still be hanging on. Even though inside I know that its over and he's really gone. Its killing me cause there isnt anything else I could do and I'm still in love with him. There's nothing else to take from since he's already gone. Being hurt for a while is how I would get over him.

` ayesha.