I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you. I'm sorry for the times I've hurt you. Please forgive me and accept my pain filled apology. I miss your voice. The way you nuzzled into me when you were having an off day. I miss you. Your love. The love you gave to me. Come back to me. Please. Baby, you mean the world to me. I love you.

` A Y E S H A.

I'm always a mess. I can never keep my own secrets. I laugh too hard at stupid things. My favourite songs can make me cry. I always watch for 11:11, but i miss it more than i notice it. I live in the past, in the memories i have with the people i love. I hate thinking about reality & i'm so homesick that it`s not even funny. But not homesick in a missing my house kind of way. Maybe it's more like heartsick for all the things that i can't get back. It's hard for me to define myself. I guess i'm just a cliche -the girl who loved too hard & didn't get anything in return. I don't want to be the heroine in some tragic love story, i just want the one person who has never given me a second thought.

Wait outside,

I hope the air will serve to remind you

that my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath,

and my words are as timed as the beating in my chest.

I think i'm thinking too much about things. This is not doing any good for me but right now, i don't see anything i can do to make myself feel better. Its quite bad news, knowing i'm helpless.

` A Y E S H A.

The closer we are to the soul, the further we are from perfection. Why settle for honesty when you can breathe a perfect lie?Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart,the love that u gave me is just a lie..i feel so stupid bcoz i thought u were my true love and I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes.
` azrin&zahira

you are an amazing person and without you,I dont know where I would be..having u in my life, completes and fulfills every part of me.
` hanafee

away from home so far away with no direct love.just of those who will forget me soon but with all this u still manage to cheer me with ur love n smiles..
- Zahira.

Baby i love you,you are my life,my happinest moment werent complete if you werent by my side

Nizam.

How much longer must I go on like this ? With all these sleepless nights, the tears I've cried and the pain. Each passing day that goes by, I feel more and more lost. It scares me sometimes when I'm only getting more drifted away from the real me. I keep on putting this fake smile on my face everyday trying to hide away my pain. And hoping that one day, this smile that I put on wouldnt be on so that I could hide my pain. But a really happy one. I hate that fact I have to plaster a fake smile. This pain I feel is just so unbearable. I'm going through hell.. Does he even give a shit?

` a y e s h a.

1 day my tears drop out than i ask why, it's says there is sum 1 so beautiful in ur eyes so there is no room fo me (T.T)

Mujib.

I keep asking myself, how long do i have to go through this with all this pain in my heart and the sleepless nights. The time for night to turn to morning never took this long. This pain that I have in my heart is just so unbearable. I would trade my soul just to wake up from this nightmare that they all say its my life now. I know we agreed to distance ourselves from each other and to let go. Believe me, I've tried so hard. But my heart seems to still be hanging on. Even though inside I know that its over and he's really gone. Its killing me cause there isnt anything else I could do and I'm still in love with him. There's nothing else to take from since he's already gone. Being hurt for a while is how I would get over him.

` ayesha.

The day he left, was the day I lost myself. Guess you could say that I'm officially hooked on him. Heh. Quote : It takes no time to fall in love. But it would take you years to know what love actually means. Sometimes in life, you run across a love unknown. And without a reason you would feel like you belong. Loving someone and that person loving you back is by far of the most amazing feeling you could ever get in your life. It makes you feel so... alive. Its as though life would be dead with out that person in your life. Its like you're still alive but barely breathing. Well, at least thats what I feel. And I can guarentee I never felt the way I feel for him. I could've waited for him. I swear I could. If only he knew how much it hurts and how strong my love is for him.

` A y e s h a.

Sleep my fallen angel,lay down next to me,hold my hand and close your eyes,and fall into a deep sleep,try to never wake up again..embrace your eternal dreams,and they will hide you from reality,so far away….to never let the pain touch your soul,sleep my fallen angel..sleep, sleep forever,your silent cry that i hear every night.i have felt your loneliness and the soft tears that you weep and hide inside your broken heart.let them falllet them drown inside my cold soul to taste your fears feeling grace so deep inside you so deep that you are lost in the dark and yet again you surrender to shadows and let yourself fall into their embrace and you still let their cold touch to venom your soul close your eyes and sleep my fallen angel.....

I’m hiding behind closed doors,I’m hiding something behind my eyes.the pain and disbelief i feel all the unspoken sighs.So this Glimmer in the darkness,could it be what i was searching for?will it be something i can hold onto,or something i will ignore?

when you love someone,
you should treat them the way you feel,because sometimes saying it, isnt enough.

oceans of fire,u make me wonder
all the life there is,just u and me.
my heart,it beats
it beats for u.
im in shaddows,when im thinkin of u.
my mind is blank,
cos its full of u
who am i?
if i dont have u

you gotta take the good with the bad,
smile with the sad, love what you've got.and remember what you had.learn to forgive but never forget,learn from your mistakes, but never regret.people change, things go wrong,just remember that life goes on.

No matter where you are No matter what you do Just remember I'll alwaysbe here for you.

I just cant take your tears
The way you look at me
It hurts every time
You see me
The pain inside
Is killing me
Like the blood in my veins running rapidly
I see u in my dreams
I see u every where
I just cant stop the moment
When we had our first kiss
Our love is strong I felt the chemistry

dont rush into love because even in fairytales
the happy ending takes place on the last page

with you by my side,i've learned that love isn't safe,and a smooth path it blooms In the most Incredible places,Letting me know that we're Meant for each other,and that is all i need to know..so my question to u is..Do u love me like I love u?

If i could dream at night..&if those dream come true,i would force my self to sleep at night..so i could dream of U,when we were together..

Every night is the same,I stare out my window & pick out a star,Every night i wish the same thing..even though i know it will never come true.i still Don't give up..Every night ..i wish U to come back to me,even though i know its not going to happend but i still make that wish..who knows one day it will come true..i just hope to sleep And never awaken,Nothing left in this world Could replace what u have taken...

I had a dream last night,U were there.U held my hand so tight,i thought i just die.Do u remember?All the times we laughed,we had fun,the times we were together?Those days are gone.i am missing U so much just like the desert misses his blanket

I miss U

I love U

These past 3 nights, I've had these dreams. Dreams of me and her still together. I don't really understand how all the sudden those dreams suddenly came to me. Sigh. Me dreaming about her is making me feel all the pain I once felt again. I am not exactly sure of what that dream is suppose to mean. Is it a sign of me missing her ? When I fall asleep and have those dreams of her, it only reminds me of those times when i was with her. That bittersweet memories. I feel as though I am still in love with her and that the love is still there and strong as how it was back then. God help me. Tell me does all THIS means. Cause this all just bringing my heartache's again.