Hey guys,emm i wanna share a little bit story with u guys its more about my feeling right now.Its a bout one girl,we spent most of our time together and we enjoy our time but lately she being selfish when she come back at her hometown.the first day of she arrive at her hometown i was waiting for her call like a jackass but i still keep on waiting and my mind start to think that she not goin to call me because maybe shes sleeping because of long journey.At 12(Malaysia time)i got a call from outside and i pick up the call and wut a suprise i heard her voice acting like nothing happen.i try to be patient and not to get angry bt somehow im the type of guy that do not know how to pretend and i start to asking her question and the suprise thing that happen was she the one that mad at me and ask me to understand her situation and shit..i just back off and just listen to her but still i tell her that is her mistake..The next day she told me that she going for a trip with her family,at that early morning i still mad at her but just pretend my self like im ok and nothing happen but i dont think she know,before she go to the trip she said she goin to hospital for checking something and im ok with that 3 or 4 hours after she told me i give her call an asking her wt u doin and where r u?the suprise thing come out again she said she otw to the hospital and im asking my self wut the hell sh were doin for the last 3,4hours ago?still be patient,and that night i call her lot of time and she dindt pick up the call and also rep my msg,at one time i think im goin give up and this is the last call that im going to make and suddenly she pick up with the voice that everything is alright,im so pissd off at her but still that day i just try nt to mad like hell..and the next day is the day dat she going 4 the trip and the painful part is when i cant get her and she like dont give a shit bout me and she just left me alone,i dnt have place to share the sad story about my untie pass away,about knife that cut my finger,that nite i feel like wanna close my eyes and never wake up again coz the pain dat i hold inside my heart.she told me that she love me and miss me but the way she acting n behave i really know the real answer,she just text me like 3times n try call me for 3times only..that wut we call i miss u so much? psst,even now im hurt and feel so down and she just enjoy her time over there n im here like a guy that lost the way to come back home..tears drop a lot of time but no one know,hmm dat wut i feel..sometimes im asking a stars at the sky 'why god give me like this kind of story,why im the one that always get the painful story n when my story going to be happy story?'hurmm..i push away all my friend and important thing just because of her and this wut i get?i try to hold in this story but im scared i cant but i think by the time i cant hold it anymore i already take all her pain away(past story)and maybe she can stand by her own feet and dnt need me anymore and also know and mature about in this life.if she read this post i just want to say better u appreciate wut u have now because not all the thing going to stay 4eva with u,try understand someone situation and take all the good&bad comment about u with open heart,and say sorry if u do mistake n give compliment if it is good and last take a good care of yourself..bye