i donnoe wut actually she want, until now i keep on thinking wut is actually she one n who am i to her?this whole time we were together is drama(fake)?she want to play around with me?she want to test me am i a god boy dat can be her bf or something else?she want to test my patient?she want to see im mad?she want to make me jealous?haha i find the answer already..the answer is im stupid that trust her n get played by her..the answer is me..but its ok because wut comes around going to comes around :) i just wait..lets se until when she want be like dis huhu,if u think u are gud im more gud then u.im nt born yesterday,i hav heart n i can feel sad,down,hurt,happy,stress..tq coz show me the true colour of you.i donnoe if i wanna give u chance or nt but if i want this time u follow my style n my way u cannot follow then bye2.give me think to give u one last shot or nt ok?this time is mine not urs anymore put it in ur mind.or if u still stubborn go ahead with that,BECAREFUL WHAT U DO,BECAUSE OF ONE SECOND THING THAT U DO CAN TAKE ALL THE HAPPINESS THE REST OF UR LIFE :)

hey guys,once again my heart is broken by the same lady.but this time i think the effect is a bit deep.i already promise to my self that i need to take a time to backoff 4 while..4 all the thing she done to me is killing me n it more worse when this relationship mix with family,im the one who always get the blame n she dnt want to back me up or take te blame together.i think this time she push the wrong button because this time im nt goin to be nice like before,maybe i be to nice to her so she do like dis to me take it easy like im just a TOY dat controll by her fingers.if break up is the way to teach her i will do so because i dnt want her future bf get wut i get because its really2 hurt..let the future bf get all the happy story with her,i pray all the best 4 her if she found the correct guy that not make her acting when she was with me.bye2

THIS IS YOU

1.stubborn
2.selfish
3.ego
4.lier
5.not loyal
6.keep on changing
7.think that you are good
8.not open up
9.do not know how to appreciate
10.hot temper
11.cannot accept the truth
12.greedy
13.stingy

why dont u understand how i feel?!this is the word that i feel like want shout out loud at the mountain if i can.. every time she with her family she like acting someone else i mean like she acting like i donnoe her anymore.weird ryte this kind of situation?i wait for her to come bak from work around 12.47 and last what i get is a quarrel with her,hmm and 2mrw got a tournament and my mental& physical is not ready at all..i thought tonight i can at least make mine mental relax because im having tournament 2mrw but it in the other way round..hmmm

Lady Antebellum-i need you now

every time that i need her by my side,i always listen to this song and sometimes make me feel better.now I'm in a deal,i have to prove to those ppl something.hmm i miss her so much i dnt think she know this because not all the time i share with her my feeling inside.in this world i only have 5 important thing that in my life..

1.my girl
2.my bestfwen(ghozany)
3.golf
4.my family
5.my self

how to survive if the top 3 all of that is gone?and far away from me?i cant see her like before and my bestfwen is far away from me NOW n the worse thing i lost my swing also I'm having the tournament this Sunday..hmm

Anyone that not going to give a real love also can take this heart because this heart so desperate to hear someone say 'i love you''i need you''i miss you'..this heart is already broken whoever want to take a risk and fix it i really appreciate because no one brave to do that. heart is like a mirror once it broke we can fix it but we still see the crack at it..anyone?

One day i have to go to leave you alone,no matter what happen i always be at your back support you even im not be with you,if i cant see you anymore at least i can see u in your sweet dream meet you and asking how r u?and also will always pray the best of u also going to ask god to guide you so nothing bad happen to you,but before i leave i want to say tq to you because give me a light in my life and teach me alot of thing in life.i will not forget you always in my heart eventho we not together.i try my best to be perfect stranger to u but i guess i was not for you,im gonna miss every morning u brighten my day,hope when i go u can sleep well and what important your life must be better when u had me ;) .i know sometimes u dindt see that i feel im home when im with you and when i see your smile,because maybe u just feel this is just love but its not for me,for me this is true love that im looking..im sorry if i don't have a strength to fight for this love anymore because im alone and i need you to do the same thing,i do my part but have u do yours?im not asking anything from you because i know at the end of the day if you sacrifice a lot u will be hurt and i dnt want it happen to person that i love let me feel the pain.Last,i think this is my destiny having relationship and at the end of the day i spent most of my time on the bed lying try to hold the pain..

this is love,theres no perfect story all the time..and the end of the story also not goin to be a happy ending story.eventho we trying so hard to make it be a happy ending story,we go back to the basic of the story which is why we together and is there any bad intention in the relationship.if there is those two better dont make any serious relation because love is something that need two clean heart together to beat as ONE..im smiling infront of u but inside im dying its so hurt..plz i want to feel a real love at least once in my life..

Hey guys,emm i wanna share a little bit story with u guys its more about my feeling right now.Its a bout one girl,we spent most of our time together and we enjoy our time but lately she being selfish when she come back at her hometown.the first day of she arrive at her hometown i was waiting for her call like a jackass but i still keep on waiting and my mind start to think that she not goin to call me because maybe shes sleeping because of long journey.At 12(Malaysia time)i got a call from outside and i pick up the call and wut a suprise i heard her voice acting like nothing happen.i try to be patient and not to get angry bt somehow im the type of guy that do not know how to pretend and i start to asking her question and the suprise thing that happen was she the one that mad at me and ask me to understand her situation and shit..i just back off and just listen to her but still i tell her that is her mistake..The next day she told me that she going for a trip with her family,at that early morning i still mad at her but just pretend my self like im ok and nothing happen but i dont think she know,before she go to the trip she said she goin to hospital for checking something and im ok with that 3 or 4 hours after she told me i give her call an asking her wt u doin and where r u?the suprise thing come out again she said she otw to the hospital and im asking my self wut the hell sh were doin for the last 3,4hours ago?still be patient,and that night i call her lot of time and she dindt pick up the call and also rep my msg,at one time i think im goin give up and this is the last call that im going to make and suddenly she pick up with the voice that everything is alright,im so pissd off at her but still that day i just try nt to mad like hell..and the next day is the day dat she going 4 the trip and the painful part is when i cant get her and she like dont give a shit bout me and she just left me alone,i dnt have place to share the sad story about my untie pass away,about knife that cut my finger,that nite i feel like wanna close my eyes and never wake up again coz the pain dat i hold inside my heart.she told me that she love me and miss me but the way she acting n behave i really know the real answer,she just text me like 3times n try call me for 3times only..that wut we call i miss u so much? psst,even now im hurt and feel so down and she just enjoy her time over there n im here like a guy that lost the way to come back home..tears drop a lot of time but no one know,hmm dat wut i feel..sometimes im asking a stars at the sky 'why god give me like this kind of story,why im the one that always get the painful story n when my story going to be happy story?'hurmm..i push away all my friend and important thing just because of her and this wut i get?i try to hold in this story but im scared i cant but i think by the time i cant hold it anymore i already take all her pain away(past story)and maybe she can stand by her own feet and dnt need me anymore and also know and mature about in this life.if she read this post i just want to say better u appreciate wut u have now because not all the thing going to stay 4eva with u,try understand someone situation and take all the good&bad comment about u with open heart,and say sorry if u do mistake n give compliment if it is good and last take a good care of yourself..bye